Saturday, February 12, 2011

Reflections from a Daddy's Girl: Healing from a past hurt!

I was a daddy's girl, so it was nothing for me to hop into my father's tractor trailer and go on a ride with him or talking on the phone frequently, with him. My father was a business man so I grew up watching him in many entrepreneur ventures, from selling Murphy choir robes, to life insurance policies, to becoming part owner of a trucking company.

Valentine's Day has always been a special day for me. It was nothing for my parents to give us chocolate candy and those little boxes of hard candy hearts. My parents were divorced so whenever there was a holiday, my father would send us cards if he was out of town.

It was February 14, 1987 and our phone rang, quite naturally I had a feeling that it was my dad. When I answered, my father said, "hey Carmie (my nickname, that he gave me), my eyes lit up and I said "hey daddy", then he began to sing "I just called to say I love you, I just called to say how much I care, I just called to say, I love you and I mean it from the bottom of my heart!"

I was wowed! My dad, my sister and I talked for a long time, before we hung up he told us that he would be coming home and that he would see us soon. Life went on like normal, until February 19, 1987, my sister and I had just gotten home and we received a phone call that our father had fallen ill and was taken to a hospital in Ohio. We had little time to react as our mother explained to us to get ready, that we would need to travel to Ohio, to be our father's bedside. Moments later the phone rang and it was the call that we were not expecting, as my older sister answered the phone, she was told that our father David Emanuel Herbin had passed away.

My life as I knew it had stopped! I was numb to the news. My dad was my world, how was I going to live without my father. Even as I write this blog, the pain is still so real after 24 years. Who was going to let me ride in the tractor trailer? Who was going to teach me history lessons about great men and women? Who was going with me on my field trips? Before dad died he told the nurse, to tell my children that I love them.... I held onto those words, yet I was still hurting!

This was to say the least a life changing experience for my family. After my father's death, I realized that I was just "there" nothing was phasing me, it wasn't until I was older that I knew that I needed help to deal with his passing. You can't heal until you deal with what has hurt you. I would smile, but deep down I was hurting, I missed the love from my father. As time went on and I matured into an adult and formed a relationship, with God, I was healed.

It was so clear that God wanted to heal me, but I was still holding on to the hurt, the pain, and the disappointment of the lost love of a father. This past Easter, I allowed the pain to resurface and I as I began to weep and call on God, I felt God purging me of this hurt that was going on at the time for 23 years. It was so clear, as I was standing there talking to God, I could feel my father saying....Carmie, it's okay to let it go, I am still your father, but your heavenly father,loves you more.

You see when we allow God to minister to us, he takes those deep hidden pains and he begins to perform a healing surgery on us. God wants us whole, he wants us to recover, but the only way you will recover is if you deal with the pain. This time, I dealt with everything, that I had suppressed for years. See I thought I was over it, but I wasn't.

In order for me to move forward, I had to continually pray and seek God. Father, I thank you that you are able to heal us from all of our hurts, now I pray that your word would help us daily as we recover.

As you continue to walk in your healing allow the scriptures to speak to your life. I am praying that God our Jehovah-Rapha - "the Lord that healeth thee" (Ex. 15:25-26), will comfort you and heal you of every manner.

Additional Scriptures on healing:
Ps 147:3"He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds." (KJV)
Ps. 23:3a "He restores my soul."
Matt 21:22: "And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive." (ASV)
Ps. 34:18 "The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit"

God loves you and YOU WILL RECOVER!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

2.1.11 Healing Prayer

Father it is early that I seek you asking you to HEAL those that need a physical, mental, spiritual, and financial healing. We stand on your word and we declare that everything that you have spoken is true. We thank you that you hear us as we pray over your scriptures.

"Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's." Psalms 103:1-5

Your word brings healing to our situations. "Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he saveth them out of their distresses. He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions." Psalms 107:19-20

"My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings. Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart. For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh. Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life." Proverbs 4:20-23

Thank you Jesus, for taking our pain and healing us. "Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed." Isaiah 53:4-5

Thank you for already speaking to us that you want us to prosper. "Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. 3 John 2

Your word has the final say over our lives....."For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." Isaiah 55:9-11

God we bless you that you have given us your word, we know that it has the power to heal us, help us to not only speak the word, but believe in the word! I pray for those that have suffered losses that you would be their comforter and wrap them in your loving arms.

In Jesus Name,

Amen

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

An Unfailing Word!

OH LORD, HOW EXCELLENT IS YOUR NAME...thank you for giving us daily bread, that our cup is overflowing and that we are abundantly blessed!! We are blessed going in and coming out, you are surrounding us with FAVOR!

Thank you for being everything that we need, when we needed a healer, you provided a healing, when we didn't have you provided, you were Jehovah Jireh. Thank you for protecting us from the traps that the enemy tried to plant, you didn't let us stumble and fall, but you oh God, prepared a table for us in the presence of our enemies. {Though they intend to harm you and devise a wicked plan, they will not prevail.}Psalms 21:11HCSB {You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.}Psalms 23:11HCSB

In the midst of uncertainty...your word never fails, it brings clarity and comfort to our hearts. What you have spoken over our lives and destinies will come to pass. "For just as rain and snow fall from heaven and do not return there,without saturating the earth and making it germinate and sprout,and providing seed to sow and food to eat, so My word that comes from My mouth will not return to Me empty,but it will accomplish what I please and will prosper in what I send it [to do]. You will indeed go out with joy and be peacefully guided; the mountains and the hills will break into singing before you, and all the trees of the field will clap [their] hands. Instead of the thornbush, a cypress will come up, and instead of the brier, a myrtle will come up; it will make a name for the Lord as an everlasting sign that will not be destroyed." Isaiah 55:9-13

God we have confidence in you...."For every one of God's promises is "Yes" in Him. Therefore, the "Amen" is also [spoken] through Him by us for God's glory." 2 Corinthians 1:20HCSB

Thank you for hearing our prayer and supplying ALL of our NEEDS.

In Jesus Name

Amen!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Prayer of FAVOR

It is more than saying we are blessed and highly favored, you have to believe that you are BLESSED AND HIGHLY FAVORED in every situation. You have to speak it and believe it. Faith with out works is dead....what is works, it is the act of doing something upon which you have declared or spoken.

Heavenly Father thank you for giving us FAVOR in our life. The FAVOR that you give, follows us every day along with your grace and mercy. Favor speaks to us when we are faced with a situation that looks hopeless. Favor shows up and blesses us because you have ordained it as a part of our life. There are times when we may not always feel like we are "favored" but GOD thank you that "FAVOR" shows up and causes a shift, a stirring in our FAITH. FAVOR is there before we are there! (physically)

Thank you for affirming your FAVOR with us in your written word and allowing us to pray these scriptures over our life.

For You, Lord, will bless the [uncompromisingly] righteous [him who is upright and in right standing with You]; as with a shield You will surround him with goodwill (pleasure and favor).Ps. 5:12 HCSB

"You open Your hand and satisfy every living thing with favor." Ps. 145:16AMP

"So shall you find favor, good understanding, and high esteem in the sight [or judgment] of God and man. Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths." Proverbs 3:4-6AMP

"For out of His fullness (abundance) we have all received [all had a share and we were all supplied with] one grace after another and spiritual blessing upon spiritual blessing and even favor upon favor and gift [heaped] upon" John1:16AMP

"And God is able to make all grace (every favor and earthly blessing) come to you in abundance, so that you may always and under all circumstances and whatever the need be self-sufficient [possessing enough to require no aid or support and furnished in abundance for every good work and charitable donation]." 2 Corn. 9:8AMP

"We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose."Romans 8:28HCSB

THANK YOU GOD FOR FAVOR!

In Jesus Name,

Amen!

Friday, December 31, 2010

2011 Prayer

What ever tried to hold you back in 2010, can not....I repeat can not go with you in 2011. Whether it was doubt from you inner man, negativity from your neighbor, or a co-worker who just nagged about life......IT CAN'T GO WITH YOU!

2010 was deemed a year of "recession" but to those of us that are believers we didn't have a recession. In fact we had more because we believed God for more, we prospered in all areas of our lives. It is no accident that you are reading this blog. Every set back in 2010 was your set UP in 2011, you have been set up to receive the blessings from God, set up to increase in physical health as well as wealth. Set up to be promoted on your job, set up to speak life into someone else, set up for a GOD sized blessing. You shall be a lender and not a borrower. (The Lord is my shepherd; there is nothing I lack.) Psalms 23:1HCSB

I speak peace in your life, the peace that surpasseth all understanding, peace that flows down by the quiet river. The peace that will quiet your spirit and give you rest in knowing that God can and will work everything out for you.(He lets me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.) Ps. 23:2

God when my friends have moments that they feel like giving up that you would carry them along the journey, let them rest in you. Thank you that in the green pastures there is fullness and the pastures are being watered by the quiet stream. Thank you that our life represents the pastures it is abundant and full because of the living water that is given by you, we shall never go thirsty. (He lets me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.) Ps. 23:3

I speak renewal in the mind, body, and spirit. That you will see God even in the very air that you breathe and reflect on how he has carried you from this stage in your life to the next....from glory to glory. I pray that you recognized his hand that is upon you that is leading you to your next destination in him. Thank you for giving us an abundant life, thank you for renewing marriages, thank you for renewing physical health and our spiritual well being. Thank you for (renewal)....it's a new me and a new you! (He renews my life; He leads me along the right paths for His name's sake.) Ps.23:4

God, I thank you that you dealt with our enemies.....we didn't have to fight, but we stood firm on your word and while they planned, schemed and tried to plot against us, you reminded us that "NO weapon, that is formed against us, shall prosper", we thank you that you allowed us to have a Judas moment and from that moment, because we didn't retaliate against people, but prayed in the Spirit, you God, worked all things out for our good. Thank you for anointing our head with your oil, that was our joy, which gave us strength and from that our cup was constantly FULL! (You prepare a table before me,in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows)Ps. 23:5

Because we are seeking you and your ways we can rest assured that you will reward us, we take joy in knowing that your love surrounds us everywhere we go, it follows us to work, it is there with us when we wake up and when we lie down. Grace and Mercy is there when we mess up, it gives us that moment to get it right and not to take advantage of you. It is following us as our guardian to protect us. (Only goodness and faithful love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord as long as I live.) Ps. 23:6

God as we say good-bye to 2010 we embrace 2011, thank you God for keeping us in 2010, we praise you in advance for all that you will do in 2011.

In Jesus Name,

Amen!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

The Conductor

I am so amazed at how a conductor leads the orchestra, it is so riveting to my eyes, it is as if the conductor has tuned everything and everyone out in order to lead. The conductor of the orchestra is so in tune with his music that he doesn't hear the noise in the background of the people talking, or the percussionist sneeze, all the conductor hears is music.

At times life can present challenges, some good and some not so good. There will be a time when life just meets you in the middle of the road, I call these road blocks. Road blocks can consist of nay sayers, past hurt, lack of trust and negative thoughts and yes, negative people. We may not always understand, why the road blocks are there, especially when everything seems to be going well.

Writing from my past experience, I could never grasp my mind around the fact that people would try to get in front of me and block my path with negative talk. Later in life after maturing (a whole lot) spiritually, I understood that not everything was out to hurt me. As a matter of fact, I needed that negative point to get me to my positive state of mind. Those nay sayers were there to propel me into the next dimension/level. I also I had to know that I could determine how much of the negativity I would entertain and how much I would delete and drop it into the trash can.

A valuable lesson I learned from the conductor was when something is out of tune, the conductor stops the orchestra and works to get that one note inline with the others. Same is true with us, when something is not lining up, we should take the time to evaluate the situation, see if what is being said or done belongs in our inbox or the trash can.

When the conductor raises his hands, everything comes to attention and is focused on what the conductor is about to do. As you lead be reminded that you will have people that will try to talk you out of your dreams, discredit what you are doing and most times this is because of jealousy. They feel you are a threat!

Sometimes turning the other cheek means walking in a different direction away from the nay sayers, even the conductor has to turn his back to the crowd in order to lead the orchestra! When you raise your baton to lead, tune out the negativity and do what you have been equipped to do. Stay humble,enjoy the music, this is your life, live it to the fullest!

Monday, October 11, 2010

Meeting the giant head on!

"When the Philistine started forward to attack him, David ran quickly to the battle line to meet the Philistine." 1 Samuel 17:48HCSB

Growing up I had a circle of friends that did everything together. We would go skating, shopping, catch a movie and just you know do things that friends would do. If one was upset we all were upset and if one was scared we all were scared.

At our school we had a bully a lot like Goliath, his name was "Rock", day after day this guy would always threaten to beat students up if they didn't give "Rock" what he wanted. For the sake of peace most of us would speak to "Rock" and then take off running. There were times where if we saw him far in advance we would go the opposite direction, because we did not want to face our bully/"giant".

Goliath was just like "Rock" he constantly threatened people day after day. His threats paralyzed the people with fear and crippled their mindset with the belief that they were permanently defeated. A divine appointment led David to the Philistine, where he heard for himself the threats Goliath was shouting. Sensing fear from those around him, he inquired as to what would be given to the one who destroyed the giant.

One day in the cafeteria this one student who became tired of "Rock's" threats, decided to take action. Now everyone warned him to just be quiet, but on this particular day, just like David, this young man, decided to stand up and face this bully. He was taking a stand to protect his people and sending a message to the bully that , "I don't have to take your threats".

You see the odds were against David, he did not have fancy weaponry listed on his resume as a matter of fact he only knew what God could do through him. David's mind was made up, he was not going to let this giant haunt his family or friends anymore. Same holds true for the young man who stood up to "Rock", he took a risk.

While the enemy is still speaking scare tactics and has been on the heels of those around you. God is going to use you to rescue those in need. Others felt the hair on their neck stand up, as the enemy breathed threats on them. Yet he anointed YOU, with his power and strength to stand up to the giant. Your inner circle ran away because they did not want to face conflict, but you decided to stay and fight for what you believe in. Without a thought or second glance, you ran straight towards the enemy. As you were running to meet your giant, God was preparing you for the victory.

Sometimes taking a risk, can be painful, but you will not know, about the risk until you face the risk/"giant". Satan is nothing more than a bully and God wants you to know that he has given you the tools you need in order to defeat the giants in your life. This win will not come because you had a rock in your hand, but because of the anointing of God that is placed over your life, it is God that will give you the VICTORY!